Inner Peace

Praying for happiness is a daily ritual for me. My prayers are not recited from written guides or quotes from the bible. I silently affirm my belief in God and constantly refer to my mother’s religious teachings about Christianity. I do read the bible often and practice positive psychology, because this is what the bible speaks about.

Today, I woke up feeling angry and annoyed. I looked outside my windows and several inches of snow have fallen. In fact, we are having another snowstorm. This one looks really intense and cars are beginning to get stuck in the snowdrifts. The city’s snowplow trucks have started to maneuver their way up and down the street. I planned to do some errands today, including paying my rent. Since I’ve been out of work, I have made bi-weekly payments towards the total amount due on my rent. I am charged $7.00 per day for late fees, each day that my rent is not paid after the 1st of the month.

Well, this week my apartment manager knocked on my door and I let her in. She requested that I sign a form stipulating that in consideration of my landlord agreement to not terminate my lease for failure to pay my rent on the 1st of the month, I agree to pay the landlord $275.00 as delinquent rent (the balance that I still owe for this month) and $125.00 in late fees.

My southern apartment manager has a calm disposition about herself, but the one thing that I will not tolerate from her, is the looks of disappointment and disdain that she constantly gives me, each time that we interact. She glares at the colors of my clothing and I sense that she is pulling at my subconscious mind, trying to drag me into an atheist world and mentally saying to herself, “I will never have her mind.”

After I looked outside my windows and saw the weather conditions are really bad, I called my apartment manager to inform her about the weather conditions. I told her that I may have to post pone the date that I indicated in a letter, addressed to her regarding the balance of my rent due for this month. Also, I explained to her that she made me feel uncomfortable, and I did not appreciate her looks of disappointment and disdain towards me. I furthered explained to her that I will not wear the same colors of clothing that she wears, because I do not want to appear, as if I am a gang member that wears the color “Red” or have bonded with a fascist party. I told her that I have family members working for the government, as well as the Department of Defense and I will not pound in their minds, or wear clothing that makes me appear to look as if I belong to a corrupt crime organization.

She became very upset and stated, “I don’t know what you’re talking about!” and I could not believe that she hung the phone up on me. A few minutes later, she called me back and left a voicemail message apologizing for the disconnection. Then made up an excuse, stating that when she receives an incoming call, while she is on the phone with another party, her phone automatically disconnects the party that she is speaking with. She further went on to say that, if I have any concerns about her to contact the owner of the building. I called her back and stated to her, “From this day forward, all interactions that I have with you will be documented,” and I promptly hung up the phone.